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J. D. Nelson


Forest is the Green Shirt but I Disappear

Neder. tables
& Wilke Coal Lotion

&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Is that grape?

&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp It’s a glass of ramen.



brightwinter

using the tree technique:

this is the drumming machine
this is the kow-how book
this is the new, blue milk

I am the friend of the bath-taker.

I control the sun using magnets.



the earth and the new earth

the worm defends the eggs
(this is lantern talk)

the ghee and the clack-clack
the frontal neighbor

toast in the sink
trash in the lake
lightning on the ice




J. D. Nelson (b. 1971) experiments with words and sound in his subterranean laboratory. More than 1,000 of his poems have appeared in many small press and underground publications. He is the author of several collections of poetry, including Cinderella City (The Red Ceilings Press, 2012). Visit http://www.MadVerse.com for more information and links to his published work. Nelson lives in Colorado, USA.
 
 
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Tom Brami



Trout fishing in the Yarra

Alfred is out late where a million bugs head butt lights like drug addicts. He is not worried about melting in the tropical heat for he has lead his beamer to the bar and has heard of other strategies for toil that exist outside the triangular eye of the religious.

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Suddenly Wendy the rabbit realises that a lunatic has drawn her, and he is inexorably reaching a climax. Her creator has left her with nothing but nostoi, her nine brothers and sisters either eaten or digging aimlessly! She buys a motorbike and takes off. The sky is alight with little cloudlets scampering westward. It won’t be long before heavier fellows bellow behind them; she must not let the rain dampen her fur lest it shrinks! Her paws to the throttle, her tail tucked. Children stare and tempt her with vegetable offerings but her head is twisted right to accommodate the vision of her left eye. Her gaze is fixed to the traffic lights inexorably approaching. Lights, unexplainable. Red!

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Marie asks Alfred if he heard something go under the wheel. A carburettor, a chassis. The bent rim of a punctured tyre. Alfred pretends not to hear this woman and fixes himself to the road winding out in front of him as if from a spool. They lay each other down on the bed. Marie’s breasts spherical or conical depending upon the position of the earth. Alfred the center of his universe as usual. The animator of Sunday funnies, old school, a sketcher of rabbits, to be killed in the strangest of circumstances.




Bangkok on a whim

Let’s cast the body out like a sign flashing
Or a stammered apology and its gesture
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp  —&nbsp&nbsp  Phuket.
Let’s go skipping in the maelstrom,
Where shadow assembles
Ayutthaya like Disney on horseback.
You don’t book tickets when the feng shui’s off
Or minor, like a tritone. The devil’s chord
A valentine-o type tango,
&nbsp&nbsp  The placement of shoes ominous
As a tick of approval.




Tom Brami taught at Monash University in Victoria, Australia last year. This year, he travels. His poetry has recently been published in of/with.
 
 
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Michael D. Goscinski


stratosmoke #1


ichor


speckled deity


stratosmoke #2


rusted gulls



Michael D. Goscinski assimilates words, static, color and other distortions from his home in Upstate New York. He has been a poet, a blog radio host, a columnist, and an editor in previous lives.. he can be reached at mgoscinski(at)gmail(dot)com or facebook.com/wearestatic.
 
 
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John Hand


eight four wheel drives

piece of a feather
conceptual f. army shop for
fondling oth eyes
reverse ampersand. reverse personal. spread as if by sea
there is one in every jeep
this poem is about pity
this poems about camberwell come and get your love
come and get your love
_______
come and get your love




stars printing in the stairs (heaven)

so no rush
no pencil, only slightly
. aggravated - take care, grab writing, feel free
force it, i am, campbells creek outside castle-maine
outside elphin-stone, its on you, to be honest, i dont
want him (to fool (me), its been an hour, im trying,
stretching it out, bel-connen, ook of love/sandy
jocks, of always being free to say horrible things & feel it
selfish aggravation, i will be principled on this to the point of being a
bit of a dick about it, theres no need to fall apart over it, theres no hurry to
smoke weed, fault the knick knacks passed round your wallet, i give up & cant see you, when
lost to touch, grabbing m-, i, poem gets meta

and full of fish some dead some not. some flower dried
stealing something going to the toilet, no chicken eggs
in this poem but
for new pancakes today maybe tomorrow. back at work (this was
someones work) the boss was good, reluctant to use names (theirs
ashamed but (facially) direct (all over again) (everytime),
bigger the boss bigger the prick & a one prick skyline, skyline prick
work

is it,
what is it? best
a good night
place w middle aged stars, middle of one age, usually….

a word to set in motion
would-be urgent
grabbing. we have all night, though, but also all of night, if, lets, yes, settle down
and have a family, seriously



John Hand works in Melbourne, but lives in Blackwood (which is near Ballan, which is near Bacchus Marsh.)
 
 
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Edward Kulemin



fouettés


Power/Rework


chills


Deadly song


March of the Enthusiasts


sphere of influence




Edward Kulemin, born Yaroslavl, Russia, in 1960. Graduated from the Moscow Power Engineering Institute in 1984. He is an artist, poet, author of many art-projects; an inspirator and organiser of various communication creative societies (KEPNOS, Group of Unknown Artists, Smolensk School of Apologists, etc.); a participant of some poetic actions, exhibition and seminars (Russia, Germany, France, Italy, Norway, Belgium, Macedonia…); included in many anthologies; the author of It seems to have begun (1994), Odnohujstvenny Ulysses (1995), By the artificial way (1998), Multimatum (2002), and Lowdown” (2012).
 
 
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Jill Jones



Lights Below the Horizon

I will be walking into swerve because
I don’t understand the steps, the stops
because I’m one more individual with feet under the noise
of traffic leaving the century
I will be looking for the country
of silence, limbo, the defeated, a bargain

I have decided to know, not because I am beloved
bewildered or empty. I am all that
but because the body trembles, the weather
is memorising dust, edges, obstacles, seductive stuff
I will be casting through arguments, harmonies
faint marks where coffee mugs have stained the varnish

Because there are queues in my head, black waves
at the quayside, realignments, loose shells

Because the lights below the horizon
go on and off all the time



Why Don’t You Know This?

There’s a hill from which
you could fall or fly.
There’s a long corridor
which could render ghosts,
memories or boredom.

Here it all is, along with horizons,
conversations, noises at the gate
and strange palpitations
following the showing of a film,
what the flat screen hides
and reveals
about us, the living.
There are some scenes
that switch moments.

Why don’t you know this?
That question follows you
and possibly
begins to look like you.
Mixing the tablets
the cooking instructions
any other thing, who knows,
is something real.
It’s not all a play!

Walk out into the world,
clip the door open,
the window.
The air rolls around, it
doesn’t give a stuff.



Rituals

I recall those summers populated with insects
the shredding, the volume controls
arcades, arguments
the lawn transmitting differences
decaying, jewel blue, infinitesimal curtains
like pitted white metal

I remember little rituals to do with
a piece of driftwood reflecting back each wave
like television
a space station outside the window click-clacking
like the violence of obstacles
temptation of colouring and flavouring

I imagine many ways over the switches
dumping grounds
folds, moisture, molecules
that filing cabinet from some forgotten basement
trance-like, wobbly
disturbed through a time zone

I ward off the food additive code
begging the beautiful, the impossible
the tide, traffic in many ways
as if that’s cheating desire’s ooze
dinner speculations, shopping confusion
a small freedom to step into the road some time

to crack
to be like this
to cry alone



The Photographer

Cameras and china dolls
can be extensions of thought
‘there was no plan’
Seven years, ‘what happens next?’
to love telling stories ‘on the fly’
at a pace

he is pacing
cricket or photography
questioning everything
… got to understand light
shake the tank
something much darker

when things line up
it takes years to get to
the tree, the leaf, the ants
after life
exhausting possibilities
time, the production
of mistakes

to mislead, discard
and leave on the ground
counting winter down
suns, about loss
and light
where does it start?

Music videos
childhood
surroundings and memory
Not thinking about it
‘why am I drawn …?
going back home

a single strand of mother’s hair
the smashed portrait
the answers are always around you
document every single little thing
how you think
about things



Straits

You’re a survivalist like me, each station
maybe groan worthy or ontologically empty
but we stand near the door, thoughtfully
making way when we need to, sometimes
the tickets are heavy like travelling into
the past, or the future, a future like Expo
where you come out into the air after the whining
tunnel, all glass is green and full of logistics
less green, then you have change, which is
almost a lesson, which direction, you choose
doors open, there’s a land of cranes, of hope
and skylines, that are unfinished
but the train will end, your excuses expire
though the state takes your hand it too
is finite, come with me through the turnstyle
walk to the park where maids and children
sit in the shade, it soon will be dark
if it matters, we soon will be stars above
the fluorescent waters, already the straits
are glistening with our story, everything
we touched, which of course, was the problem




Jill Jones is an Adelaide-based writer. A new book, Breaking the Days, is due from Whitmore Press in November 2015. In 2015 she won the Victorian Premier’s Literary Award for Poetry for her eighth full-length book The Beautiful Anxiety (Puncher & Wattmann). In 2014 she was poet-in-residence at Stockholm University. She is a member of the J.M. Coetzee Centre for Creative Practice, University of Adelaide.
 
 
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Gian Luigi Braggio



Fleisch.ges


Gian Luigi Braggio explores the boundary between consciousness and reality, gives value to the relational aspect of the artwork in particular with namVisualArt, an inclusive and participated project which involves artists, shops, and public spaces to reflect on the meaning of art and culture in contemporary society and shape quality, both aesthetically and commercially. The artist shifts the focus from the object to the person, from the aesthetic ideal to discover the intrinsic beauty of things. Fascinated by eastern philosophies and quantum physics, he explores the spiritual aspect of art that becomes an instrument able to expand and enrich the person and express the original cosmic connection between nature and culture. He has made drawings, sculptures, installations, video, text, performance and has taken part in many personal and collective exhibitions.
http://gianluigibraggio.it/
 
 
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Issue thirty-nine Date of Publication November 1, 2015.
Individual pieces Copyright © 2015 by their respective creators

Editor: Mark Young

Most of the images in Otoliths can be enlarged by clicking on them.



Pete Spence
Four Poems

Annette Plasencia
Girl + Petalos

Shataw Naseri
Three Poems

Philip Byron Oakes
Five Poems

horace p sternwall
again

Kyle Hemmings
Seven Photographs

GS Smith
Five Visual Poems

j4
Three Visual Pieces

fátima queiroz
Six Typewriter Poems
Five Visual Poems

Raymond Farr
Five Poems

Angelos Sakkis
What We Still Have

John Lowther
Eleven Sonnets from 555

Texas Fontanella
Text & Visuals
More Text & Visuals
More Text & Visuals

Mark Pirie
Four Paintings, Two Poems

a. j. carruthers
Axes 33-35

Jack Galmitz
from Taller than a flying bullet

Marco Giovenale
news from the old desk & other visual pieces

Michael Aird
Three Poems
Two More Poems

Karen Greenbaum-Maya
Seven Photographs, Two Poems

Dale Wisely
The many ways to say 'sorry' in Japanese

Olivier Schopfer
Backstage

Anne Gorrick
Summer Former Without Being Gorgeous

Mike Gullickson
Two Poems

Simina Banu
Four Visual Poems

Rob Cook
from ARRIVAL AT AN ABSENCE OF HEALING
Four More Poems

Andrew Topel
Nine Visual Poems
Nine More Visual Poems

Michael De Rosa
Drowned Lands

Judith Roitman
Six Poems

Peter Ganick
Six New Poems

Demosthenes Agrafiotis
Ezra Pound. And Beyond.

Eileen R. Tabios
Three Poems


Steve Dalachinsky
Two Poems

Steve Dalachinsky & Jim Leftwich
Fifteen Poems

Jim Leftwich
Three Poems

John M. Bennett & Jim Leftwich
Four Visuals

John M. Bennett
Eight Poems
TWELVE INEXPLICACIONES OF DREAMS OF BIBIANA PADILLA MALTOS

Volomydyr Bilyk & John M. Bennett
Ten Visual Poems

Lakey Comess
Nothing To Do With Him/Her

Seth Howard
Two Poems

Nicolas Grenier
Three Poems

Christopher Barnes
Five Luddite Poems

Laurent Grison
The Battle of the Somme

Brendan Slater
Fragments from 541

Charles Wilkinson
Two Poems

John Vieira
Two Poems & Five Visuals

Richard Kostelanetz
Intricate Infinities

Howie Good
Two Prose Poems

Pearl Pirie
Two Visual Poems

Willie Smith
Three Short Stories

C.S. Fuqua
Two Women

Márton Koppány
Reminiscences
(Hungarian Vispo No. 11)


Sandy McIntosh
Three Prose Poems

Charles Freeland
from Rabbit Fever

Jürgen O. Olbrich
Musikant

Alexandre Pierrepont
Loyalty Islands

Cecelia Chapman
The Image Vanishes

Simon Perchik
Four Poems

Scott Keeney
Four Poems

Anneke Baeten
from Translating Paint

Branko Gulin
REBIRTH OF VENUS

Martin Burke
Canto II

Bill DiMichele
Lowku

Bobbi Lurie
Unfinished Projects

Felino A. Soriano
from Oscillating Echoes


Karl Kempton
= Big Bang =

Michael Rothenberg
WAR

Jeff Harrison
Three Poems

Marcia Arrieta
Four Visuals & Seven Text Pieces

Natsuko Hirata
Two Poems

Sanjeev Sethi
Two Poems

Robyn Art
Four Poems

Jesse Glass
Apology + "Agony of Matter Action"

Vaughan Rapatahana
Two Poems

Marilyn Stablein
Deviltry: an artist book + Two Poems

Caleb Puckett
Three Prose Pieces

Shloka Shankar
Six Visuals and Three Poems

Johannes S. H. Bjerg
Nine ku

hiromi suzuki
Three Collages, Two gifs

Katrinka Moore
from horse

Mark Staniforth
from The Road to N'Djamena

John Pursch
Two Poems

Mark Russell
from The Kidnapper's Store

sean burn
Two Visual Poems

Bob Heman
from [information]

Joe Balaz
Three Hawaiian Islands
Pidgin Visual Pieces

Three Hawaiian Islands
Pidgin Text Pieces


Robert Lee Brewer
Three Poems

Stephen Nelson
Five Visual Poems
Three Asemic Pieces

PT Davidson
Five Poems

Tony Beyer
Two Poems

Jake Goetz
Two Poems

J. D. Nelson
Three Poems

Tom Brami
Two Poems

Michael D. Goscinski
Five Visuals

John Hand
Two Poems

Edward Kulemin
Six Visuals

Jill Jones
Five Poems

Gian Luigi Braggio
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Steve Dalachinsky
as collage / p27


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point of view of a child >
WRITING TO BE : to share this chapter
i don’t want @ this point >

wouldn’t it be nice i ask dismembered / taken seriously

the devoted muslim sitting in front of the mosque
if there were a total end to materiality : MUSIC > welfare diners -
throwing the water into the pool / scholars / 63 hour interviews
one on one analysis of the plot/theme identity development
young adult related - writing apologies - medication
passion - bi-polarization - narrative symptoms - awareness of problems
identity i dentity identity analyzing identity
my own development related to other people’s objectives my own development
past heroes free delivery from ongoing conversations >
WHY i prefer not to be called a writer / interesting i am a righter writing wrongs
like a barber > barbershops > the barber shops & finds the HUMAN CONDITION
the mind / BREEZE saturday afternoon trapped in someone else’s discussion
(what is the human condition)
brain / birds talking to each other . finding resolutions
gender electronics / pride in one’s hot sauce membrane-eous –

i’ve been thru much more than some but not as much as others
nocturne blue / sleep walker /
i don’t know what it is that seems to be seeping thru my shoe
it is as if i am bleeding water
we are all after all 90pluspercentwater
it’s humid – so this is not impossible if i am wounded


 
 
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Steve Dalachinsky
as collage / p28


69

leaves us breathless
but not gasping
or grasping
but flailing somewhere
in the distorted air
near midnight
with the abstracted theme
trailing off our
ears


70

the river
smells like a river
today
the kayackers – fallen leaves

against traffic
@ sunset
the butterfly

he picks her up
swings her around
pretends to toss her into the river
the bond of their love
now in the public domain
they continue jogging
her trust in him
assured

the sun hasn’t set
the world has simply revolved
around it
a sudden surge of waves
a sudden quiet breeze
the river shimmers
then goes dark

she yawns.


 
 
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Steve Dalachinsky
as collage / p29


71

something materializes
it will become a part of me
a word - JEWISH
becoming a thinking human being
looking up at the sky
searching form becoming feeling
the richness of insight
of what one can do
achieve

my patterns becoming
undone.


72

i go cute space
when in for their prefix
went
lunch & when i want a foreigncon champion
campeones del mundo


73

me - hello –
is this steve (up)
yes it is – (my 7th day of a severe kidney stone attack)
- wow you’re as hard to get a hold of as a pickle in a pickle drive –
(a new one on me)
this is Vanessa of AC services –

i hang up.




Poet/collagist Steve Dalachinsky was born in Brooklyn after the last big war and has managed to survive lots of little wars. His book The Final Nite (Ugly Duckling Presse) won the PEN Oakland National Book Award. His most recent books are Fools Gold (2014 feral press), a superintendent's eyes (revised and expanded 2013 - unbearable/ autonomedia) and flying home, a collaboration with German visual artist Sig Bang Schmidt (Paris Lit Up Press 2015). His latest cd is The Fallout of Dreams with Dave Liebman and Richie Beirach (Roguart 2014).

Some parts of as collage have previously appeared in FIRST LITERARY REVIEW-EAST (no. 4) and in Truck (nos. 9-12)

 
 
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Susanna Lakner


Levitation














Susanna Lakner: born in Budapest/ Hungary. Since 1989 has lived in Stuttgart / Germany
Collagist, makes artistbooks, artistamps and objectboxes.
Founder and editor of the non-profit assembling mail art magazine „22“.

Publications:
The Inside Story, Collage booklet 2015
Venus & Mars, Collage book with texts of Bernd Reichert Artemisz Publishing, Hungary 2013
Susanna Lakner / The Papertailor of Planet Susannia, Collage booklet, edited by Reed Altemus Tonerworks USA 2011

Susannia Bildschneiderei: www.leben-und-kleben.blogspot.com
Facebook: Susannia Bildschneiderei-Susanna Lakner
 
 
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Philip Byron Oakes


Archetyping

Lonely epitomes showing how it’s done in the mirror.
In reflection upon tenets to a template for a semblance
of charade. A certain kind of dead on your feet in the
door. Bringing secrets full circle to commonality in the
brisk. At vanishing points losing perspective in the wash.
A patience unbecoming the speed at which things
change. As disturbing details come to light of the silvery
moon. For a close inspection sure to follow the
pheromones home. To be better fed the choicer
portions of common coin, in the wishing well preserved
to nourish the eleventh hour, with a count to ten little
mendicants for every one of those who matter.
Marching like saints into a cocoon sure of a reckoning
as the clock ticks down the pike a bit. The surrealists
take a moment to breathe the country fried air into
rhinos on the rogue as the time passes all measure
of conceit. Over the gravel still pickings of a simple
thought, to rest upon as promised land in a garden
of vagaries keeping the answers short and
delectably crisp.



Up Close

Via sham proximity, arm’s length of years,
buffering a here that now runs from:
spattering consequence in character
reference for shadows; blotted plays of light
revealing an inner working of hints,
as to structure, ways into shape you might
think would never come, glancing at a bold
caprice to the wobble square one lives for.
Sealing sanctums with a kiss left to knock before
entering. Making a splash perform in waves of
laughter. Routes upon which directions
rely to keep quicksand in business. Longer
stretches the dog days share with the measly,
interminable facsimiles roughing ready up for
the real thing; a slight turn of the season, a tic in a
nestling of the armor to a tighter fit, to feel as if
skin long ago shed, as baggage of bolts out of
a blue rhapsodic tingling of age, iffy outings
well inside the greater sphere playing bubble for
the ride as slide into self. Sinking feet in debt to
having cut short a drowning, in how it could
have been if it weren’t for all the world. Flotsam
in hopes planted as roots holding edges in place
of submerging to the bottom of the mystery.
Well positioned to promote a delusion of
cantankerous proportion with just a smidgeon
of identity to spare.



Speed of Which

Smell testing inertia on the fly before
you walk phase of feeling for the door
to repose. In doses not to exceed house
limits on the use of limbs in the inequities
market. To leave a mark forgotten in fallout
from grace. A handle on the underground
reduced to golden moments on which
memory hinges, like a rusty gate on a
construction site of secrets. Dancesteps
for a dog whistle. A slow get to the middle
the melee serves as buffer against the drag
of tranquility on the wings. To complement
a comforting twist on the rhododendrons
salving a summer breeze as the paint
slowly dries on reality.



Time Telling

Time measured diminishing in proportion to
weight of moments stretched until they burst
upon a scene. Paraphrasing eternities in the
waiting room with a garnish of groans to the
bitter end. Gateway to the basement’s vantage
on a roll of hills over a dice of tomorrows.
Chumming waters to anoint a toe in the cold,
catching wind of the wave caught napping at
the crest of expectation. Letting the clock
revolve in an old circular paradigm, as heads
might spin a web to catch the hour as it was.
Subject to debility’s romp through crippling
circumstance. Feeding into the conscription
of a narrative parsing chasms in the texture
of words, consoling explorers of a breach
between what is and should be bridged. As
minutes wane under weight enough to
marshal a veneer into formation. A bone
orchard of harmless phrases tending sheep as
they graze on opinions of the all encompassing.
And yet for all the winsome noddings the
bobbing of the troubled seas persist, roiling
the long forgotten into myth, sustaining an
industry of totems through the eerie sobriety
of the autumn months. Through the depths
found lurking at the surface everyday.



Hazy

Error to resolve through cushions of belief
in time, set aside for later than you think so
hard it hurts. Fragilistic by degree saddled
to cravings for a cushion corresponding to
the nick. Ample evidence to fill a blind
spot waiting godot out of mind. To catch
a break on late fees for services rendered
obsolete by advances in the art of
prevarication. A decent distance to assume
the duties of a hinterland down the
boulevard. Attesting to what was and will
be happening without anyone to notice. To
teeter on the brink of a peek in the mirror.
Not far from time’s chance to crawl through
an air of importance. A narrative of home
not here but elsewhere. Contiguous to a
fault by design, as the friction builds a
mansion on the lake. The erstwhile picket
for parity, as the lights fade into the glory
years. Come to grips with doctored
realities of even the simplest of stories,
destined to share the burden as privilege
bestowed when we speak of the devil.
Of having been there when there was no
second place to dig into, with either foot
leaving their presence felt to this very day
to call your own as proof of something
looming. As foreseen by a profit in looking
the other way for comfort in knowing the
blind lead the blind of necessity.




Philip Byron Oakes is a poet living in Austin, Texas. His third volume of poetry, ptyx and stone, (white sky ebooks) was released in 2013.
http://philipbyronoakes.blogspot.com/
 
 
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Singing in the Dead

I far prefer the kinder to be home.
Their masks are wood,
their eyes are blond.
The squawk of paint removes
a threaded vetting of contiguous marchons
until the ladder dries.
Until viaticals vie.
A mother lode is fickle while the thickets phase out vines.
We undermine our caveats
once verisimilitude unlatches.
Fireflies anoint their prey.
Let us divine our way through penitence.
Someone forgive my innocence.
Repay me my control as I forgive the spin of captions.
Limit Lord, my salter.
I convene this group of heretics for purposes unknown.
Myopic referenda stop the QB from advancing.
Ruminative theory blanches the already white lines on the field.
A color code repurposes the fealty of the line coach.
Obfuscation can be fun-
damental obvious.
Whose nest is this anyway?
The curse of reuben sandwich is the cube of salt not there.
I’m going to phone your mother and defer your fate.
I’m going to let the officer retrench.

Bench youth and tumble while
Weeds violate the din of offset prose.
You vintage me. I forewarn.
You rattle your own cage upon
A moment’s notice, shepherds once elected
drive the wrong flock in the wrong direction



Lemon White

Trapeze steams each ‘lope open (chaliced
chemistry of horizontal light (serene
the clutch chemise of silver sleep (demeans
athletic rage (encourages
The entourage we same-sex (lavender
Tends change within (range
Average lines on lanes (panes
Sorry states of grace (apace
To taste a text toward (walled
Or vetted violet (lean



Spitting Image

Magi drift just as
The comforter slips off
Wild Irish davenport
Until the good guys sport
While surrying pre-pondering
Ward-ward thus to volley
Forth and froth the wheels
With suds and wear best duds
To simple toward the only clarity
We hone and boneless breast
Our way through how the mirror
Wore the spyglass and the look
Framed fealty itself
For feeling of the felled tree
And indifference for me
And my best se me olvido
To clear thy name



Reveille

I wake got no idea of the day the time
The obligations piled upon the desk
I know not what I rue
The crew is chancy and the posse
Riffing on the frets I used to bow
I think we’ll row across
Or we will veer
Then peer over the fence and stifle
Someone something some such
Garden for its grade and palsied weeds
And filler and forensic craft
A raft of solitude on order
Back and forth and fondled between
Chain supplied denied decried among
All nations goading hole in one
Mentalities entwined




Sheila E. Murphy
 
 
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dojo


fall











Halloween


The Burning of America


Interiors








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KOSTI’S
DIVINE COMEDY


In memory of Henry Wadsworth Longfellow (1807-1883)


INFERNO


I.

The Dark Forest.

ABODE


II.

The Hill of Difficulty.

ABORTION


III.

The Panther, the Lion, and the Wolf.

ABSENCE


IV.

Virgil.

ABSOLUTE


V.

The Descent.

ABSOLUTE


VI.

The Intercession of the Three Ladies Benedight.

ACCESS


VIII.

The Gate of Hell

ACHIEVE


IX.

The Inefficient or Indifferent.

AIMLESS


X.

Pope Celestine

ACUTE


XI.

The Shores of Acheron.

ADHESIVE


XII.

Charon.

ADVENT


XIII.

The Earthquake and the Swoon.

ADVICE


XIV.

The First Circle, Limbo.

AGREEMENT


XV.

Virtuous Pagans and the Unbaptized.

AILMENT


XVI.

The Four Poets: Homer, Horace, Ovid, and Lucan.

ALABASTER


XVII.

The Noble Castle of Philosophy.

ALARMED


XVIII.

The Second Circle: The Wanton.

ALBION


XIX.

Minos.

ALCOHOL


XX.

The Infernal Hurricane.

ALGEBRA


XXI.

Francesca da Rimini.

ALGEBRA


XXII.

The Third Circle: The Gluttonous.

ALLEGIANCE


XXIII.

Cerberus.

ALLERGY


XXIV.

The Eternal Rain.

ALLOWANCE


XXV.

Ciacco.

ALONE


XXVI.


Florence.

ALREADY


XXVII.

The Fourth Circle: The Avaricious and the Prodigal.

ANALOGY


XXVIII.

Plutus.

ANSWER


XXIX.

Fortune and her Wheel.

APRIL


XXX.

The Fifth Circle: The Irascible and the Sullen.

ARMAGEDDON


XXXI.

Styx.

ARMY


XXXII.

Phlegyas.

AROUSE


XXXIII.

Philippo Argenti.

ARSENAL


XXXIV.

The Gate of the City of Dis.

ASTRINGENT


XXXV.

The Furies and Medusa.

BALONEY


XXXVI.


The Angel.

BARELY


XXXVII.

The City of Dis.

BASEMENT


XXXXVIII.

The Sixth Circle: Heresiarchs.

BASTARD


XXXIX

Farinata and Cavalcante de' Cavalcanti.

BEARD


XL.

Discourse on the Knowledge of the Damned.

BEARER


XLI.

The Broken Rocks.

BEAST


XLII.

Pope Anastasius.

BEER


XLIII.

General Description of the Inferno and its Divisions.

BETTER


XLIV.

The Minotaur.

BEHAVIOR


XLV.

The Seventh Circle: The Violent.

BEHEAD


XLVI.

The River Phlegethon.

BELONGED


XLVII.

The Violent against their Neighbors.

BLAME


XLVIII.

The Centaurs.

BLITHE


XLIX

Tyrants.

BLURRED


L

The Wood of Thorns

BOUYANT


LI

The Harpies.

BOXING


LII

The Violent against Themselves.

BOTTOM


LIII

Suicides.

BOURGEOIS


LIV

Pier della Vigna.

BRAIN


LV

Lano and Jacopo da Sant' Andrea.

BREAST


LVI

The Sand Waste and the Rain of Fire.

BRIM


LVII

The Violent against God.

BRING


LVIII

Capaneus.

BRETHREN


LIX

The Statue of Time, and the Four Infernal Rivers.

BROAD


LX

The Violent against Nature.

BROUGHT


LXI

Usurers.

BRUSH


LXII

Descent into the Abyss of Malebolge.

BULLSHIT


LXIII

The Eighth Circle: Malebolge.

BULLSHIT


LXIV

The Fraudulent and the Malicious.

BURNT


LXV

The First Bolgia: Seducers and Panders.

BUTTER


LXVI

Venedico Caccianimico.

CALIPHATE


LXVII

Jason.

CAPABLE


LXVIII

The Second Bolgia: Flatterers.

CAPITOL


LXIX

Allessio Interminelli.

CAPITOL


LXX

Thais.

CAPITOL


LXXI

The Third Bolgia: Simoniacs.

CAPSULE


LXXII

Pope Nicholas III.

CARBURATOR


LXXIII

Reproof of Corrupt Prelates.

CARD


LXXIV

The Fourth Bolgia: Soothsayers.

CARTOON


LXXV

Amphiaraus, Tiresias, Aruns,
Manto, Eryphylus, Michael Scott,
Guido Bonatti, and Asdente.

CASEMENT





Richard Kostelanetz's THE BIO NOTE TO END ALL REQUESTS FOR BIO NOTES can be found here.
 
 
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Feathers Dreaming of the Wind


The Flashing Strobe Light of Memory


The Bride's Concrete Wedding Dress


Hesitating on the Rickety Hayloft Floor


Deep Tingling That Paints Waterfalls Down Your Toenails



Bill Wolak is a poet, photographer, and collage artist. He has just published his twelfth book of poetry entitled Love Opens the Hands with Nirala Press. Recently, he was a featured poet at The Mihai Eminescu International Poetry Festival in Craiova, Romania. He teaches Creative Writing at William Paterson University in New Jersey.
 
 
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Misty Room


Riding through Town


The House I Left


Models in Paradise


Autonomous Arm




Kyle Hemmings has art work in The Stray Branch, Euphenism, Uppagus, The Bitchin' Kitsch, Black Market Lit, Red Bird Press, Snapping Twigs, and Convergence. He loves pre-punk garage bands of the 60s, Manga comics, and urban photography/art.
 
 
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At the Race Change Clinic


&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp At the polished desk in the Race Change Clinic sat white coated Doctor Morrison. Pulling a pen from his pocket, he tapped it on the desktop.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp So, what brings you here David? They tell me you want a race change procedure?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Yes, said David, sitting up. I’m not comfortable in my own skin. For years I’ve known I am the opposite of what I should be. I’ve struggled to live with it, but it’s time to deal with it. That’s why I’m here. I want a race change.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Okay, said Morrison, picking up a folder from the desk. Poising to write, he swiveled the chair toward David. What exactly is it that’s wrong with what you are?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I’m the wrong color.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp No, no, said Doctor Morrison, leaning back and tipping up his glasses. There’s more to it than just color. Haven’t you thought about that?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I—well—I have—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp No you haven’t. Don’t you know there are many things that go to make up race?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David sat forward.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Doctor, I just know I don’t fit in with my wife or my friends. I want to fit in.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp And what race are they?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The opposite of what I am, said David, pointing to his face.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Oh. Well that makes it more interesting. How did this come about?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David shifted in the chair and gesticulated as he spoke.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I fell in with a different crowd in high school from my friends of the same race. It just happened—it happened because I just feel different from them. I feel like the friends I have now, I feel like my wife—I just feel different. It’s about who I should be. But—I feel like they treat me different because—because I’m not like them. I want to be like them.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Have you spoken to your wife about this?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David looked down, then up.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp No I haven’t.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The Doctor poked the pen into his cheek.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Oh? Why not?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I guess I don’t want her to know I’m so uncomfortable.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Like how—come on tell me.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Okay—like how we get looked at when we go out to restaurants or shows. That’s one thing. It doesn’t look like people are staring—but they are.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The Doctor pushed out a hand.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Now, listen—these days mixed couples are widely accepted. You shouldn’t feel people are staring at you, they probably aren’t—especially here in the city.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David fidgeted, then blurted out I—I suppose it might be just me Doctor but what I think and feel matters! I’m just not right! I just don’t feel right! I need to change!
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The Doctor raised the hand and leaned back.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Now now, David—calm down now. I know that. That’s why you came here. It’s a big step for people to come here so I know it’s important to you. What about your friends? You mentioned your friends before.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Yes I think that sometimes they step away and whisper to each other you know, like, like there are things they exclude me from.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp What things?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David shook his head.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp How should I know? Something—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Are you sure you might not be imagining this too?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David laid his hand on the desk.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I—Doctor, I feel like you’re fighting me!
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The doctor leaned forward, rested his elbows on the desk, and looked David dead in the eye. No David, he said—I feel like you’re fighting me. Give me a really good reason you need a race change procedure. So far you haven’t.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Isn’t feeling miserable about things enough?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The Doctor threw back his head, widened his eyes, and twirled his pen.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp How do you know you wouldn’t feel just as miserable after the procedure? Think about it—think about it would really mean to change your race—you’d be anatomically different—you’d be perceived as culturally different—socially you’d be treated different—there are other things too, but you get my drift? The world is larger than your family and friends—there is a whole world of people who would see you differently—don’t you find this scary? Could you handle this? What about at work, at the store, at church, things like that—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I don’t go to church—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The Doctor thrust the pen at David.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Now David! Don’t divert me! You get the point!
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David put his hands in his lap and he looked down at them.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I just want—to be the opposite of what I am now, he quietly breathed.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Do you really know what that means, David? Let me give you some advice.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David looked up.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Go home, said the Doctor—give this some more thought. Think about the things I’ve said. Then come back later today and we’ll discuss it further.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp All right.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp They rose. The Doctor and David shook hands across the table and five minutes later David found himself out on the city street. The sun poured down and the tall buildings thrust up and the people flowed around him. All kinds of people; male, female, tall, short, white, black, yellow—and he stepped into the stream wondering what people really thought when they saw him. What the Doctor had said had left him confused. What did he want to be? Did he really want to be like any of them, or did he want to be something completely different? The blacks, the whites, the yellows—was there really any difference between any of them, when none of them were like he felt inside? Or was there something completely different that you could be? David dizzily managed to walk toward home—it had been a big step going to the race change clinic. He had really had to get up his nerve. He had not mentioned any of this to his wife or his friends—how could he tell them he was uncomfortable around them? The sidewalk went by under; the buildings flowed by unfeeling; and the people drifted to and fro with their secret thoughts and feelings. And his were just as secret, he realized; we are all locked up inside of ourselves with these imperfect looks gestures words and activities to let others know us. And we cry out to have others know us; this is what David had always thought; but now he wasn’t so sure. What had seemed simple was now complicated; he arrived home and slowly, hesitantly he went through the chrome trimmed glass doors toward the elevator to his apartment. The tile floor went by and the glass windows showed the beautiful gardens in the courtyard of the building and it dawned on him; he must be a racist; it hit him hard in the gut; yes—going to the race change clinic had made a racist out of him—or at least had shown him he always had been one. To even have wanted to go there—he must be a racist—he went up the stainless steel elevator to his door and went in the apartment. He realized he had not said a word since the final All right to the Doctor. What would come out of his mouth now to his wife; he stepped into the foyer, and she came around the corner from the kitchen all in white, her eyes flashing.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David, she said, taking his hand and squeezing it—you’re home early. Why’s that?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Oh—the work in the office was real slow so I thought I’d take a half day.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Racist. Liar.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Well that’s good, she said. She kissed him on the cheek and let go his hand and headed back toward the kitchen. He watched her. Again secretly as so many times before he thought of her as different; the opposite of him in nearly every way. He stifled this thought because it was not healthy for the marriage which had been and which would still be happy, if he would let it. If only he could get rid of this feeling of otherness that the Doctor’s words had made him so afraid of. There was just one thing to do; he had always confided in his wife; he watched through the kitchen door as she busied herself; her profile was traced on the wall beyond; and her features were not his. This made him unhappy; his fists clenched; he was a racist. He had to tell her, but the Doctor had said go home and think about it; maybe he should do this first; keep it to himself—be a hypocrite.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Racist. Liar. Hypocrite.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp She turned her head toward him where he stood in the short hall.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Why are you standing there like that? she smiled at him. You’re too quiet David. Is something the matter?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp He stepped toward her.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp No—nothing’s the matter. I’ve just got some things on my mind.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp What kind of things?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Oh—work things. You wouldn’t care what they are.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Racist. Hypocrite. And liar again.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp He shook his head and wiped the back of his hand across his forehead, then looked up.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp You know what Jeanine? he said—I’m going to go for a walk, get some air. It seems close in here. I feel—I feel a little sick.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp She turned to him and stepped forward.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Oh David—are you all right? Can I get you something? What hurts?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp She looked so different from him; he was so aware of it, as always.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp No, he said, pushing out a hand. I just need to get some air.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Okay, she said, stepping back. We’ll eat at six. You got your watch? So you know the time? We’re having filets. Nice ones I got yesterday.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Yes—I have my watch. See you before six.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Okay.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp His stomach churned as he turned away and went to the door and let himself out. That’s it—his stomach was churning. Maybe he really was sick. Maybe he should go lie down.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp But no—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp He was out in the hall and he went past the courtyard and as usual the flowers were beautiful and this was encouraging—some things don’t change. Some things are just honestly what they are from day to day forever. Some things are lucky enough to be beautiful and stay beautiful no matter what. But then, he thought, this was wrong; they will wilt and die; wilt and die given enough time—he hurried past, to get the dead flowers out of his sight; the pounding of his feet took the thought. He reached the door and was out in the street. The bustle of cars trucks buses and people was still on, multicolored and unstoppable. He stepped out, one of them, ignored by them he knew. A blanket of comfort fell over him; they are thinking about work, home, children, spouses, dinner, this evening—and not of him. He felt suddenly comfortable to be part of this crowd. He felt calmness come up as he walked along with so many others like him; all into themselves, all faceless. The crowd swept him along, and he thought no thoughts until he realized the crowd was sweeping him along back to the race change clinic.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Faceless—we are all the same.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Yes! he thought—I will go back there. I have thought about things—I can talk to the Doctor—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Faceless—we are all—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David! came a voice. David turned.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Milt, said David—where you off to, came automatically out.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Oh. Got to pick up a few things. You got work today?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp No, not today.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Lucky you. Well, actually, lucky me too. I’m off today too. You know—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Milt’s nose, lips and skin moving as he talked, his eyes—David was painfully aware of these as he had been for so long now. Milt went on as they stood suddenly still, resisting the flow of the crowd—the current sweeping past with the words.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp —we ought to get together the next time we’re both off—maybe we could go to the game wouldn’t it be great to take in a game it’s been a long time it’s the season for it—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The words went on and David thought back through his eyes How are you really looking at me thinking of me while you are saying all this would you say it like this or this way or even at all to any of your other friends—what do you whisper about me to your other friends, in secret?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp —okay David—anyway, got to run. Nice running into you.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Yeah you too Milt. Take it easy.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The crowd pulled them apart and once more David began to walk and the thoughtless crowd took him all the way to the turnoff toward the race change clinic. He turned against the current and dodged a bus and went down the side street which had fewer people going back and forth but just as fast; he had to dodge them. Regardless of being black white yellow male female tall or short each one had to be dodged just in just the same way; this told David that maybe he wasn’t as much of a racist as he imagined he was—but it was just momentary. He needed to go see the Doctor now—he glanced at his watch—that he had been swept here was a sign; he had to level with the Doctor. The steps to the Morrison race change clinic came up and he went up the broken slate treads and through the heavy wooden door and faced the slight dark eyed woman at the front desk.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Yes? she said.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I’m David. Doctor Morrison told me this morning to think some things over and I have. He told me to come back after that. So I need to see him.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp All right, she smiled, picking up the phone. I’ll buzz the Doctor.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp In five minutes David sat before The Doctor’s desk. The Doctor sat leaning forward with his hands twined together on the desktop.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp So, he said to David—you are back. I’m quite frankly surprised. Most I speak to as I did you don’t come back. So what conclusions have you reached?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David wrung his hands and swallowed hard and then opened his mouth.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I am a racist, he said. I never thought of myself as one but now I feel I am. And there’s more.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Yes? said the Doctor, raising his eyebrows.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp It is racist for there to be such a place as this—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The Doctor’s eyebrows rose further as David concluded.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I—I think that inside we are all the same. I think there is some way to be that doesn’t have to do with any race. I—I don’t know but I don’t think anybody needs a race change procedure. I think—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp He paused.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp You think what? said the Doctor. Come on, let it out.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David summoned the courage, then let it out.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp I think you are a fraud Doctor. A fraud and a racist too—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp As David said this it seemed as though all the yellow black white male and female faces that had thronged the streets came together piling up around outside and smothering the clinic—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp It’s racist to want a race change procedure.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The Doctor’s hand rose.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Enough, David. This means you are mentally ready.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The clinic began to collapse under the weight of the faces—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp Ready for what? said David.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp The Doctor picked a folder up from his desk and opened it; David’s folder.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp For the race change procedure, he said. You have a clean and honest need for it. Come with me—we’ll get it over with—
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp David glanced at his watch.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp It’s that simple? That easy?
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp When you’re ready, everything is easy. Come.
&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp And David went with the Doctor just as the truth dawned on him of what it all added up to and the clinic collapsed crushed to a mere dot of dust that a mild clean breeze blew away.



Jim Meirose is the author of the novel Mount Everest and has four other novels contracted for publication with Montag press over the next two years. His short stories have appeared in various literary magazines and journals such as Otoliths, The Fiddlehead, Witness, Alaska Quarterly review, Xavier Review, New Orleans review, South Carolina Review, Whiskey Island Magazine, Ohio Edit, Bartleby Snopes, and many others. His short work has been nominated for several awards.
 
 
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